speechless

today i put a lot of food in my mouth..
just keep on eating and eating..
i wasn't in a good mood..
so i force myself to eat more..
food is the only thing that can keep me happy now..

i saw something that shouldn't see today..
because it shouldn't happen..
i couldn't do anything..
so i just smiled and said..
it's ok..
just forget about it k?

i was trying to hold back..
to not make things worst..
so i have to keep smilling..

it wasn't about how to do..
it was all about how much do you understand..
i was totally speechless when that happened abruptly..
just let the God..
make the pathway for us..
let the God decide..
that's all i can do now..
so stay happy while waiting for it ^^

meanwhile..
i got knocked on a bench edge..
straight away got swollen..
=.=..it hurts..
now there's a mountain below my knee again..
what a..
bad day~