raining

22/10/10 is the worst day ever..
got myself into a bad temper situation..
bang on the lecture hall's door just like that..
i don't know how the hell i did that..
=.=..

today listened a lot to pei rong..
she said a lot of things to me..
and eric too..
maybe because of all these stuff..
i can't control my tempered..
people used to tell me..
think of the others' feeling..
don't be selfish..
don't misunderstand them..

i agreed..
we have to learn to be more matured..
more rational..
and think further..
but sometimes..
i just wished..
i am still a kid..

i was trying to change my mind..
but after what i've been through in cc yesterday..
i started to feel scared..
afraid..and suddenly i felt that..
i'm not as tough as how i thought i used to be..
i just wanna go home..
and cry..
in my only place where i feel safe..
and no more........................

i was in fear alone yesterday..
even now..
after i heard i have to stayback today..
i was started to feel wanted to skip school..started to feel wanna cry..
and i knew i can't..
i'm afraid of..
the feeling of being .......... is scary...
is not good..
T.T..
i just wanna go home now..
i don't want to be here in any minute..