i hate myself

i'm so hate myself..
hate myself of being that way..
hate myself of thinking all rubbish stuff and nonsense stuff..
hate myself of behave so badly..
i'm so sorry to them..
i'm sorry..

i don't know why i couldn't control myself..
i couldn't control myself of behaving so horrible..
i'm so desperate now..
so hate myself!!
even when to hit the wall..
got injured..swollen and bleeding now..
but..

the pain of my heart can't cover from the pain of my fist..
i don't know what else to do..
hate myself  T.T